As many of you may have noticed (I'd be surprised if you didn't from all the tweets) I'm in a bit of a funk. There are a few reasons for this which I will list below and explain to the best of my abilities:
- Sleep Deprivation. This is my fault really. I love the TwitterPonies RP, and because I love it so much, I actually stay up later then I should every night so I can RP with awesome people or finish up awesome scenes. I should limit myself, but I can't help it! Especially when characters such as Princess Luna come along and start RPing with you... The problem there is that I live in the USA, Pacific Coast. Luna? The player lives in Germany. 9 hour difference. When he starts playing as Luna, I'm normally trying to wrap up my scene. My fault. I choose to RP some more.
- Players leaving the RP. I don't care if you don't believe in God given gifts, but I do. I am able to really see people. Not physically, but mentally and emotionally. When I meet someone, whether it be IRL or on the interwebz, the more I interact with them the more I learn who they are. Even if I only talk to them once, I get some form of attachment to them. When a player announces that they are leaving, I physically feel a pain in my chest, knowing that a friend is leaving. The major ones were Music Master (mlp_musicmaster) who also played Linkara (mlp_linkara) , and as of today, Marigold.
- Normally, when a player leaves, I do get a bit depressed, but I push through. Today, Marigold announced her resignation and deleted her account for good, unlike Music and Linkara who may one day come back (I'm doubtful). But she pushed it one step further: She posted this. Pretty much, it's an insider's guide to the Background of TwitterPonies. About who's running it and how corrupt it is and how it failed to provide.
- I am an optimistic pessimist. I see the bad side of life. I see it, I study it, and then I hope for the best. I always try to make things better than they are instead of accepting defeat and letting the truth take over. When Marigold posted her message, I was unable to read it at first. I was heartbroken when she left, but I was determined not to let it get to me. On my way home, I was DMing mlp_Marbelle about how TwitterPonies was going, trying to be my optimistic pessimist self. I was annoying. When I got home, I read the document and I snapped. The truth punched me in the face with Celestia's left hoof. I was devastated. Finally, after being broken down by people leaving, this last message broke the wall. I crashed. I haven't been this depressed for quite some time, and it sucks!
So, those are my reasons. What will I do now? What I always do: Put on a facade and pretend this never happened. I will get over this just like I always have and continue the RP. So, see you on there ponies!
I still don't understand where the corruption is. The only Mane character I interact with is Twilight, and she's very nice and accomodating. The only thing I noticed was that Spike, who is also Celestia and The Mlp_Mod blocked a friend of mine and REFUSED to tell him why. I'm glad you decided to stay, Pyro.
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